A Pair Laying In Love

I'm yours forever

I'll always be there

Spend summers together

Laying in ocean's air

You're mine forever

You'll always be there

Spend winters together

Laying in the beauty of branches bare

I'm yours forever

I'll always be there

Spend springtimes together

Laying in blossoms; each other's hearts we wear

You're mine forever

You'll always be there

Spend autumns together

Laying in fresh-fallen leaves

Your face in my hair

Mirror, Mirror

My voice is like desperation

Desperate for my father to see

See me as I come,

As I am

We're on a merry-go-round

360 degrees around our little piece of this world

Let me feel my feet in your shoes

Let all our biased thoughts

Flex and shake loose

Their self-afflicting state

Let's open each other's eyes

So we can see

See each other's reflection

Despite the condensation

That fogs up our mirrors

Lessons

I need to learn

To speak what hinders

The houses of my heart

With poise

And a composure

That I know the world would
Listen to

I need to tame
The emotions that accumulate
on my adolescent tongue
Thet get angry fast
They cry fast
And crash on the shore
Like waves of saltwater tears

I can take these emotions
And learn to hold them gracefully
I can take these emotions
And tame them so they show beauty
I can take these emotions
And collect them in buckets
Recording what they say to me
On paper

Please

Catch the dreams

That cross my eyes

Steal the tears

That weigh pure lead

Speak the words

So terrified children aren't forced

To scream them

Spin the wheels

So fast the spokes rust

With every second so short

Erase all the errors

That have left loved ones alone

Get rid of the ghosts

That fatigue my friendships

Stop Satan from tripping up my feet

Strap him in chains

Away from the blessed and unwanted

Hang the struggles upside down

So they spill all over the floor

Tattoo my poetry

With your approval

Attach me to your memory

Run Away With Me

Despite the emotions

That won't settle

Among the ashes

Take my hand

And lead me to

Where you want to

Take me under the stars

Under Orion's Belt

So we can share conversations

With the galaxies

That watch over us yet laugh behind our backs

Take me among the trees

Intertwine me with all the secrets

That the willows keep

And the leaves conceal

Take me to a desert

Over and under the ribbons of sand

Let our laughs ring for barren miles

As they blow in the wind

Take me to your heart

We can live there together

Forever

Annoyance

My eyes burn

From rubbing them

With dirty palms

And contaminated fingers

From the bright light

That seems to seep in

From every empty corner

My eyelids feel heavy

Carrying all of these dark lashes

That work day and night

My glasses

Slide down my nose

Until they halt at the tip

Without a saddle

They refuse to stay put

My ears are annoyed

By obnoxious audible colored pencil strokes

That enter my ears from three feet away

A 6 year old produces art

Annoyance has conquered

For now

Joi (i.e. my first sister; pronounced Joy)

You carry

The singing voice of an angel

You sing like heaven

Is right before your eyes

Your soul is the song

That you've written

It arranges itself so beautifully

The notes tap on your shoulder

And whisper melodies in your ears

Let angels carry your song

On their wings

To every ear that will listen

Don't ever doubt that they will

You Can Always Run To Me

Shhh

Your cries pierce your sister's heart

Let the words escape through silent tears

Wash the pain away

With me

Come sit in my arms

You can always run to me no matter what

No matter how old we get

We've been through alot

Wallowing through rivers of harsh words

Struggling against angry eyes on angry faces

Your heart may be frayed at the edges

And your eyes may say that your soul

Is distraught

But you can always run to me

Shoebox

Where do the years go?

Are they collected in shoeboxes?

High on a shelf

Well out of our reach?

I've always wondered

If maybe they might've disappeared

Dissolving into the foundation of the universe

As soon as the seconds tick by

I've always wondered

If maybe the years play on

Reliving their own day

Over and over again..forever

Where do the years go?

How do we lose them so fast?

How does time slip away?

When we're watching it so closely

How do the years get away from us?

When all we want is to be able

To hold onto them as long as we can

Sometimes You Make My Heart Heavy

Words never come easy

When your eyes are on me

My heart grows heavy

It beats so deliberately

Your words sting like frost bite

I'm defenseless

I'm the child

I don't have your years

Or your experience

What am I supposed to say?

To your crossed arms

And your angry eyes

I decide on doing the only thing

I know you can tolerate right now

I nod and utter an okay

I wait for you to respond

But you choose to walk away from me

Because words never come easy 

Passionate about Poetry

Oh my gosh...I've been so into my writing lately. This month I've been working on a new, more aware and understanding, poem book. I'm thinking about naming it Loved Ones or something of that nature. I've written 15 poems, approximately, so far and they are amazing; they are so insightful. I'm really trying to dig deep inside myself and reveal my true feelings for my loved ones; the ones involved in my life that I could never let go of and that I love unconditionally. I am also trying to develop an "I Believe.." statement that my Humanities teacher had recommended for me. I already have what my topic, it's derived from a quote of Albert Einstein's which I am positive that is worthy of being shared as the thesis that I will develop in my own words and thoughts. Okay on top of that I'm in the progressive and gradual process of writing a memoir of my crazed, meaningful, 13 year-old life. It should bring some closure to the atmosphere. And I have and essay due monday but i have a magazine project due tomorrow that I'm kinda freaked out about (more like stressed lol). So life is coming along and I'm leaving some stuff behind that have been festering inside the hollows of my heart.

Cyan

A girl of a delicate blue

She's a graceful shade

That dances in your eyes

like a gentle flame

Cyan is a beautiful color

Born from blue and green

Her hair touches her back

In a cascade of curls

Her eyes shine like sapphire

That will never fade out

The corners of her mouth

rise to present the most charming of smiles

Her hands have never worked a day

in her life

They're feminine and soft

like periwinkle

Her nails: neat and unscathed

They're the green of a jade stone

That she gets from her mother

Her arms are slender but solid

like the one blue that no matter what

will always be,

in every crayon box

Her legs are long like a ballerina's

She uses them to twirl

like the tropical green

of an ocean's whirlpools

She is the shade of blue

That dances in your eyes

like a gentle flame

That never burns out

by. Sian Carter

Everything Blue

Blue is the coldest primary hue

The sky that mirrors the ocean, blue

Blue is the color that you get lost in

Because it's so deep

A color that is so close to your heart

That it's almost too hard to keep

Blue: a color that soothes and is refreshing to your sight

A burst of mint as it hits your taste-buds

The feeling is as mysterious as night

Blue...those worn-out jeans

At the bottom of your drawer

Or the eyes of the person you love

Someone you would do anything for

Blue could be the color that describes a moment

Where you felt so carefree

Maybe the time someone broke your heart

The color that every runaway tear seemed to be

Sometimes you aren't so sure about blue

It can be your best friend or your worst enemy

It can be by your side or out of sight

Anything

But there are those rare cases

Where blue stands you up when you've fallen

It may be the thing that reminds you of all you've forgotten

Blue is limitless

Blue is fair

Blue is timeless

Always a breath of fresh air

by Sian Carter

One Thought After Another

I can feel the distance between us

The only thing you've given me

That I can trust

We don't know what tore us apart after we said "forever"

Better yet, tell me what kept us together

It was all so short that it felt like one moment

I gave you my heart

But you weren't very good at owning it

I have to admit that I thought we'd last longer

I guess love left us out on the street

And we were goners

You ran away without any second thoughts

I just lay there and in the net of sorrow my tears were caught

The moon crossed the sky

Marking the months that I was without you

And I held it all inside until I had to let you know the truth

I told you I loved you

But again there were very few words you were strong enough to say

I wish I could have seen your face when you said I'm sorry

But my tears blurred the way

And here we find ourselves still figuring out how to recover

We won't look back

But we won't forget what we've both discovered

Maybe in some way we'll always be a part of each other

Maybe we're both thinking about it

One thought after another

by Sian Carter

Nothing Else

She's come too far to turn back now

She's come too far to have this doubt

She doesn't want to get closer

She wants to back away

She doesn't want any words spoken

Because she knows there's nothing left to say

But something keeps pulling her back

And she doesn't know why

All she wants is to move on

She's already said goodbye

She keeps ending up here; heartbroken and alone

She keeps trying to win his heart when she should just keep her own

She wants to forget

But somehow that's too much to ask for

She wants to forget

Because she doesn't want him anymore

She wishes that this problem would just solve itslef

All she wants is for everything to go back to normal

If nothing else

Though she can't help thinking about him every night and day

In her mind he's a bother

All he ever does is get in the way

She's trying her hardest to leave him behind

She just keeps changing her mind

She wonders where she goes from here

How does she quit all the dead end sighs and frustrated tears?

How does she make it to tomorrow when she can't even face today?

If nothing else she wishes she were strong enough to stop her tears

Strong enough to know what to say

Dirty Windows and Their Secrets

 Dirty windows protect a million secrets

Each minute whispers a new one into your hollow ears

a million and one

You're hidden from a world

That won't invite you in

The blemished glass conceals you

From a world of terror and also grace

That can't seem to decide

Between good and evil

They consider you neutral

But you know that neutral

is dangerous

It  shows weakness that allows

left and right

black and white

To devour you all at once

So that you're forced

To spend your days

living behind

The dirtiest of windows

by sian grace carter(me)

happy day

ohh i am so glad Pennsylvania has reached the 60s since it hasnt since early November haha. Winter is depressing, I couldnt be happier that the sun is out and its warm enough to get rid of my winter coat. I love spring!!!

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im craving laser quest right now...